.an unknown angel, a recognised devil.

mati kutu

2011-07-11T00:12:00.001+08:00

bersawang betul la blog neh.. sorry i didnt have time to sit down and write.. so many things to be shared actually but so little time..

currently, im doing nothing much.. seriously..sounds weird i guess for me to say that i'm doing nothing much because i always have things to do.. true enough, i do have a list of things to do..what am i talking about..? pff

what just crossed my mind.? friends..! i have some nasty friends, snobbish friends, ungrateful friends and all.. but i also have the good ones, the loyal ones and the appreciative ones.. im glad..i just need to adjust my heart and be wiser.. that's all..

love u peeps,
malcikgei

la la land

2011-05-07T08:53:00.001+08:00

hey hello..

Do u know about illuminati.? If u don’t, u might want to google or read on this somewhere..i cant really explain as it needs longer clarification from A to Z..

Anyway, I just need to point out at lady gaga..why does she has to make music based on lucifer, jesus, and etc nowadays.? Cant she go back being the rarara gaga ulala, bad romance or just dance or whatsoever.!

What mystifies me is that how can her recent songs get so many supports.? I mean, yeah it’s catchy and all, In fact as much as I want to avoid singing those songs, gotta admit though, it simply stuck there in my head..

Ive just listened to “judas”.. oh come on, stop producing songs which have anything to do with religion please..what are your scheme? Trying to implant ideas which say doing something that is against your religion is fine..? u might as well leave your faith in Christianity if that’s the case girl..do u have any idea who is Judas? Technically, according to the New Testament, he was one of the twelve apostles of Jesus and betrayed Jesus into the hands of the chief priests..

Anyway, if u want to be a positive thinker on the song “judas”, u can say the song is all about her love life..but as for me, I interpret it in my own way..i shall keep my views to myself or share it only with close friends..

Take a peek on the song “judas”..click here

good day people..!

i just had McD breakfast with nuni, arina, rasz and meme..bought two newspapers and now im off to bed, yayy.!! i have not slept since last night..

saturday, 9am

malcikgei

this too shall pass

2011-05-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

random? aint random.? random.? aint random.?

who cares; whatever..

malcikgei

budi bahasa budaya kita

2011-03-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

there are two ways to express your thoughts to a friend..

it's either through : the nice way or the harsh way..

which one would you choose..?

bear in mind, life is like a wheel ..therefore, please mind your words and choose it properly.. be cautious of your utterances or rephrase it if u must..at least, make an attempt to be humane because all of us do have sensitivities..

i believe in karma and Allah Al-Mighty..

" when u're closer to a friend, that's when u should pay her more respect"- W
"when friends get too comfortable,they tend to forget that we have feelings too" - eyha

p/s : this is random..no hard feelings..
"Without wearing any mask we are conscious of, we have a special face for each friend"-aleya
malcikgei

Brothers and sisters are as close as hands and feet.

2011-03-08T20:25:00.002+08:00

yes, farizatul aqma a.k.a kak kema is back in malaysia..she has completed her 3 years of Master's Degree in one of the South Korea's renowned universities with the fund from South Korea's government itself..yes, not bounded with any contract as well..she's 26 year young..lucky her.!

anyhow, now that she's home, i dont know what to say.. O_o

ok first, im happy that u're now with us..!! next, congrats..! im so glad u're done with your studies in such a short period of time, actually she only had 2 and a half year because she took some subjects in advanced during the semester breaks..

she has traveled a lot, experienced so many things in life, and in short, she is amazing.!my sisters went to South Korea for a vacation as well as to attend her convocation..yeah yeah, they left me, i know..pff

sometimes i ~~envy~~ her, sometimes i feel proud of her..

nonetheless, seriously i always pray for you..i want u to be happy, successful, respected and so on la..i want u to have everything that u desire , because u simply deserve it..

Having a sister is like having a best friend you can't get rid of. You know whatever you do, they'll still be there. . <3
i love you, good luck for your future undertakings..

malcikgei

is politics dirty.?

2011-03-01T20:48:00.002+08:00

po to the li to the tics..!! =) frankly speaking, politic is not dirty..however, SOME POLITICIANS are..

“Those who are too smart to engage in politics are punished by being governed by those who are dumber.”

be wise,
makcikgei
p/s : thanks to azwan for the quote

thank you eid

2011-03-01T20:01:00.000+08:00

my dear brother, farid mokhtar a.k.a eid came by just now..just to deliver my dinner, sponsored by him and pizza hut..yummy..!! though im not a big fan of pizza hut, it's rezeki kan..thank you eid..! love you..*it felt good to see one of my family members.. =))

tuesday, 7.59 pm
malcikgei

what's new..??

2011-03-01T19:57:00.000+08:00

i miss home..
i have tons of things to do..
assignments are piling up..
projects are just around the corner..
i havent been reading on anything..
datelines are scribbled everywhere in my organizer..

regardless of my current situation, i'm excited to go out with the famous-gorgeous-plus-lovely 'Brodie' girls, also, i hope eyha and I are going to have fantastic weekend soon..<3

yes, nothing is new indeed..
but but, there's one.! my sisters are in south korea, having fun while im here all alone..poor me.!

malcikgei

the best weekend..!

2011-03-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

yeah, my best weekend was a couple of weeks ago..

sorry, i have been busy and thus i didnt get the opportunity to write this short post..

first up, as some of u might have known, ive been waiting long enough to meet up with two of my closest friends..they are Puteri the Pretty and Dayah the Dainty.. =)) a few days before the long awaited meet, i gave them a call, whining about how hectic my life is and outta nowhere i 'begged' for a small reunion..i needed them..

on friday, i met dayah at KL Sentral..we then took a stuffy train to Kajang.. reached puteri's house and we went out that night for dinner at Satay Samuri, went to UKM as well, which at that time was busy with the annual election..got back home, took a shower and we were all lying in puteri's bed..i swear i could remember the days back in Uitm where we had to squeeze in and somehow made our bodies smaller just to fit in the three of us on the single bed (we were roommates and we liked to share bed, sibuk2 nak jugak nyempit)..the next day, puteri's parents brought us to Yusof Haslam's restaurant for lunch and headed to Mid Valley afterwards..we departed around 6pm and i felt sad..it was as though, im losing something precious..maybe it was due to the fact that, it's going to be difficult to see them again because all of us are facing time constrain plus we are all quite busy and transportation probbie yada yada yada..nonetheless, the time spent was priceless.! i'll be looking forward for our next small gathering.. <3

on sunday, i went on a trip to a magnificent waterfall..!! god knows where because i do not know..hehe..as usual, there were mira, non, rina, meme..oh aus n su joined us as well..we had BBQ by the waterfall..!! anyhow, of course i took a nap along the journey since i was mentally and physically exhausted..when we reached there, first above all, i yawned and rubbed my sleepy eyes and looked around and i was like "yayy, now lets get ready with the BBQ pit"..that day was incredible, the water was like whoaaaaa..!! those enormous stones were slippery and yes i fell down embarrassingly.. O_o it was a fun day filled with laughter and foods..hehe..fyi, i cant retrieve most pictures in my phone, oh lord.!

the weekend, 3 days of extreme joy..

exaggerate je aku kan..haha

yet, thank you lovely people for making me happy..

"Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be."

malcikgei

anda bangun pada pagi hari dan terasa rambut anda seperti singa??

2011-02-06T03:46:00.003+08:00

this title is just a random idea that crossed my mind..there is this commercial ad which has that tag line and i find it hilarious because i can really really relate it to myself..my close friends will know why..hehe

these pictures were taken last week.. =))

i know i look like a teddy bear or a lion..roarr..! but my girlfriends love to hug me maybe because i am like a teddy bear, im hug-gable, for them jek..

yeha boom boom paw yaw..!!

ive been wanting this since like forevah..!!

so i found those nasty lil macaroons in harrots, finally..

friends, what are u waiting for.?! u hv to get some..

yummy isnt it..!! i was salivating by just looking at it..

next was abt my trip to cameron highlands on the 1st week of last month with tira, fifi n siew..

AMAZING.! =)

free flowers..hehe

ada gaya orang padi kat sawah tu tak.? O_o

i was running here and there and making silly expressions..and others were like "aleya, ko memang la hyper active betul!"

free strawberries..

fifi, u're a bad photographer fyi and i know ive been telling u that 459 times..

just before i threw up..ok blame the road yang bengkang bengkok..!!

there were other vacations, getaways and etc but i feel so lazy to upload those pictures and tell the details yada yada yada..

p/s :i like to let the pictures do the talking but the wifi in this college aint that fast u know..

malcikgei

sunday, 3.40AM

(internet tengah laju sbb students belum balik kolej, tu yg aku semangat on9)

here and there

2011-02-06T03:17:00.000+08:00

ni nuni bagi, dari india..

ada yg dia bg dari indon, baju dan purfume tetapi tiada gambar buat masa skrg

ini aku kini, sumpah budget..(sangat back to asasi kan)

cuti CNY aku cume sempat jumpa mereka yg tersayang ini shj, sayang2 lain ada tidak pulang ke negeri kedah,ada yg sibuk,ada juga yg tak kesempatan aku bertemu..dan aku sibuk bersama kelurga tercinta, juga uruskan hal2 aku dan semestinya sibuk makan, .. <3

encik azwan buncit bagi, i gave him 5 min to get me something at the choc fair dan inilah hasilnya..ala buat susah2 ja aih..

pemberian athirah yg meronda ke London..

ini arina kak pah bagi apabila meronda, dari duhh terpampang label singapura tu haa..

ni cik winnie beli sebab teringatkan saya semasa keluar bercengkerama.. =)

this is so random tapi biar lah...

aku punya suka mau post apa..

maaf ye kalau ada lg pemberian lain yg aku x post gambarnya..

aku tak snap bnyak gambar pun..

just took some pics of wtv that were in front of me..

sje post ni sbb takot bersawang blog ni aku biarkan..

nak menulis bercerita panjang MALAS..

malcikgei

bits and pieces

2011-01-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

i was browsing the net when i thought of my non-um friends..hence i took the time to stalked them awhile just to see how are they doing, their updates and all..my emo season is around the corner i guess..anyways, i shed a few drops of tears..i miss them, badly.! if i had a time machine, i would like to turn back the time to some moments when we had so much fun and then, later on i'll just come back to present again..what i have now are memories and some pictures for me to rely on when life gets hard, i do smile when i think of u..aku rindu korang..be happy, be safe and take care..till me meet again lovely people..!

<3
some friends have no idea how much they mean to me
*sigh..i miss my family, i miss my friends, i want a bf, i want lotsa cash, i wanna go travel..
malcikgei

alhamdulillah

2011-01-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

i've got my results today, i can't be any happier..i was so afraid at first to check so i insisted to just be cool and i'll check it on my own, alone.. fortunately, we were registering a new course together and accidentally they saw my results..we were screaming and hugging, i am happy, really..i feel satisfied..i didnt tell many people though..apart from those who were in rujin's room (rujin, nisa,watip), i told my roommates(nuni, mira) and called my parents..oh also of course, i informed winnie..sorry syg, u lost your bet and i know u would prefer me to win anyways..

later on, i went on9..i saw numerous wallposts, only to congratulate me..im touched, honestly..news travel fast kan..btw, hey people, thanks for every single thing u hv taught me..besties, im so blessed to have u guys, all of u, no matter where u are (um,uitm,sp and etc)..also, to my family and lecturers, thank you so much..

my intention of writing this post is not to brag about my results..i simply want to express my gratitude..u know, i can safely say my friends,family and people around me really are proud of me..i feel good, real good..that's all i can say..

and and, i think it's not too late to say HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR..!! may your dreams come true and i hope this year brings us lotsa laughter, happiness and all the good things aye..

gratitude is the best attitude.. =)

thank you allah for this opportunity.. <3

malcikgei

a perfect get away

2010-12-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

summary :

on 5th, along picked me up from college and we went to nilai..

on 6th, we went to tampin and gathered with angah, eid and abah.. 4 cars in total, konvoi..unfortunately my mom couldnt make it for this family vacation..anyhow, we hit the road and headed to malacca,this year's family little vacation..

so, to make it short, we walked and walked and listened to a history lesson from along..my feet felt numb due to the long walk..we had cendol, pisang tanduk and etc..

after we got so tired, we drove to the homestay which is located in a village near the town..it was cozy staying there and we loved it since we live in town and hardly get any chance to stay in a village other than our kampung in perak..

during the night, we wont missed the chance to try the famous asam pedas in malacca..and and the dinner was superb as we had only seafood, well i love seafoooooood because i dont eat vegetables..

the next day, we had breakfast and stopped by awhile at perigi hang tuah..we did history lesson again and made numerous speculations on hang tuah, grave, the dead, the dutch and etc..i find this trip as very educational and worth every second as u know, the time was spent with family..

ok, later we went to port dickson..believe it or not, that was my first time..yeah, i've been to many islands and beaches in malaysia but not PD..my father enjoyed the scenery as the last time he went there was 27 years ago, whoaa..as for me, PD erm not that good la..indah khabar dari rupa betul..because the beach is dirty, that's all i can say..

for now, let the pictures do the talking because im done..

this is eid (farid) , my brother..

i look soooo chubby, dorang kata tembun..

me and firdaus, angah's first born..

history lesson from along..

jakun jumpa beranda...

my beloved angah (fathin)..

the ship, it's a museum..

guess what is this..??haaa it's kerepek..

my hero is my dad (haji mokhtar)..

perigi hang tuah

im not 20 yrs old, im 2..

sister in law, kak yati..the known glamor lady..

aku tak try basuh muka pun, nanti jerawat lagi naik pulak..

again, the kerepek..yang neh perasa strawberry..

meet my big brother, along (fauzi)..

oh the view..

ok jakun lagi..

ini aku yang gemuk..lalalala

on 6th, it was athirah's birthday, how i wish i could be there..wish i had a jet, but of course im not paris hilton..seems like they had fun, im happy for them..anyway, next year insyallah i'll be around ok..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIRAH.! i love u..

bak kata noor izzati dan awatif ghapar, aku buat semua ini, kau ada..?? i have my wonderful family and incredible close friends..im happy with the way i am now, i feel contented and i appreciate each and every one of u..again when it comes to friends, it is not the quantity that matters but the quality..tuntasnya, i have many friends and im doubting their friendships..wtv, people come and go aye.?

titik.

malcikgei

the jerk

2010-12-04T16:07:00.001+08:00

if i can name you one man i hate the most, it would be mohd. ***li..

i dont respect him, i dont look up on him, i dont find him useful as a human being and i simply despise him..

my ears bleed when i hear his name, my long term memory loathes to recall any events related to him..

i can assure you he is not one of my ex-boyfriends..

in short, the jerk defines vengeance, resentment, grudge, hatred..

i hardly hate someone, so i have my reasons for this..

malcikgei

and the stomach said "ergh".!

2010-12-02T21:34:00.001+08:00

watip dan cerita(click here)will tell u what happened yesterday..

well what she didnt put in, is the story when i had severe stomachache..

it was excruciating, i even cried..

wtip, i guess it was all because of the cheese and biscuit..

swear i should never simply mix up the stuffs..

fyi, i had real fun and cancelling my date with my friend was totally worth it..

thanks babe, i love u too..

btw, i didnt notice about the hanging chicken wing thingy..
malcikgei

boleh la boleh datang ke rumahku..

2010-12-01T14:22:00.000+08:00

ENUNI, AMIRA, RASZ, MEME AND ARINA LOVE TO MAKE FUN OF ME..

it's a good thing im super cool and can deal with anything kot..

i just dont like the idea of people making fun of other people but they themselves cant take some stupid jokes..lol..

no offence but, u arent cool buddy..!

i mean, the only thing i hate would be same-old-repeated-cliche'-annoying jokes..because i had experiences with my friends who made some lame jokes for like 30mins..gosh, com'on u have to be more creative instead of offensive..i mean i got your point, i laughed, i even made fun of myself then enough la..*tett, next joke please.!

ok,regarding those names above, they are superb so far because we make fun of each other, we accept each other's flaws and so on..

ok, the tittle has nothing to do with the content..
malcikgei

B.O.R.E.D.O.M

2010-12-01T14:00:00.000+08:00

IM ROTTING IN COLLEGE..

IM BORED TO DEATH..

OH LIFE..

malcikgei

bla bla bla..

2010-12-01T13:51:00.001+08:00

two days ago I had my poetry paper, nah I don’t wanna comment anything pertaining to that..

So, we had our paper and we went straight to mid valley

Hell yeah we watched harry potter and the deathly hollows part 1

It was super cool, entertaining and and spectacular..!!

Thanks to my girlfriends who are always willing to accompany, make me happy, fulfill my wishes and etc..

Too bad though, something came up and nisa couldn’t make it..

I feel like a witch now, no wait.! I think I already am..

malcikgei

outta sheer boredom

2010-11-24T03:47:00.000+08:00

shissh, i really need to study..pfffbt..
malcikgei

i feel u

2010-11-24T03:45:00.000+08:00

is it possible to feel sad for someone else..?
is it possible to feel like crying over someone's sorrow..?
is it possible to feel like this for someone i'm not even close to..?

i guess so..
malcikgei

one year

2010-11-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

I missed asasi

Sweet 18, indeed it was..

Enormous experiences in many aspects..

Friends came, friends went away..

Love gained, love lost..

Asasi, spectacular..

Asasi, wonderful..

Asasi, magnificent..

Asasi, mind blowing..

Asasi, breath taking..

………..

Asasi, painful..

malcikgei

Finals

2010-10-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

Good luck people for finals, do your best and let’s just hope ade soalan bocor..

p/s : winnie and I have a bet.. =)
malcikgei

These girls rock my life

2010-10-26T00:39:00.002+08:00

It was a fine Saturday which I planned to sleep whole day without any disturbance..

“aleya banggggon..!!jom jom jom..ish budak ni”-sambil gegar-gegar katil

“apeeeeeee….??aku malas pergi..baju tengah sidai , belum kering and assignment pun belum siap”-I was mumbling

“alaaa jom jugak, kejap jek..janji balik awal”-dengan nada memujuk

Yeah, I gave in..finally I tagged along for a waterfall trip in hulu yam..

There were nuni, rasz, arina, mira, hanis, alip and others..3 bijik kereta konvoi penuh dengan orang jakun nak mandi air terjun..

I thought the place was near, little did I know, the journey took a few hours okay, haihh habis masa tidur aku..

However, I had fun and there were much laughter..

They have always made me smile and they say I’m childish and whenever I’m around, there will be no peace nor silence.. O_O

If u guys are stalking me, weh neh haa aku na jujur sikit..aku suke keluar dgn korang dan korang keep me busy like a bee..korang jugak selalu suruh aku kira jam kalau tengok aku berjaga lagi sampi lewat malam (tengok cukup tidur tak)..hehe

I heart u <3

malcikgei

U’re amazing just the way u are

2010-10-26T00:22:00.000+08:00

If I were to say your post is about me, would u say I’m being perasan..? >_<

Don’t know why, deep down I just can feel it..

If it’s true, I’m flattered..

I have never knew u do value me to that great extent..

So as u know, I love u more..

I shed a few drops of tears when I read the post, I was touched..

Worry not, I shall never leave u my friend..

Whenever wherever, u can find me right next to u.. <3

Lari topik : I thought I saw u puteri nurshiela when I went for kenduri akak nisa..and I thought I saw u atikah TESL at café when I was about to go out..guess I’m missing my friends..oh Winnie, thanks for the cekak rambut, I love it.! =)

malcikgei

YOU are the only exception, pfffb

2010-10-19T01:54:00.002+08:00

YOU have never failed to bring a smile on my face, everyday..

and U have never failed in spoiling my mood somehow, on certain days..

lions don't dream , they roarr..

malcikgei <3

wet is you and you are now wet

2010-10-19T01:22:00.003+08:00

Hey syg, happy 21^st birthday

Well, the idea occurred to me couple of weeks ago when I thought alan would be away to celebrate your birthday

Hence I told the others and they immediately agreed

Anyhow, u need not to know other little details

Im glad u had fun and loved the surprises

p/s : yeah we shall go out one day, buy a cake and celebrate our birthdays all at once..easier laa..haha, ke aku yang kede..lol

malcikgei

emo-ish

2010-10-06T00:07:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a very longgggg and tiring day..in addition I think my menstruation is approaching so u know what it means, PMS.!oh how I loathe it..i have to bear all sorts of feelings every once in a month.. pfff

My cranky mood bored Winnie stiff I guess..i was quite grumpy and certain things seemed unpleasant to my eyes..i deliberately took no notice of her, sheeshh what the hell was wrong with me aye.?!however, when we reached college, I felt agitated doing so..i mean, she has been so patient and considerate with me..why couldn’t I tolerate, why should I be heartless..why am I so sensitive over smallest and silliest things, ade jek aku nak carik gaduh dgn dia..PMS people, do blame PMS.! I was filled with remorse for giving her that kind of attitude..hence I went over to her room to see her, somehow I will always feel uneasy, disturbed or anxious when this sort of incident happens, until at least I have a brief talk with her..well this feeling normally occurs between me and my close friends fyi and my friend said it’s a norm..haha..err by the way as usual, she said she knew I wasn’t in a good mood plus I was exhausted thus she didn’t take it by heart.. =)

Ok 1 thing settled..still I felt extremely upset as though I was in somekinda misery..i went out afterwards and I left my phone purposely..i wanted to flee at that very moment, I wished I could go somewhere, anywhere..i wished I had a car, I wished I had a flying carpet, I wished I had a magic broom, I wished I had a magic wand..i fantasized myself being in a harry potter’s movie, where I could use magic to put sorrow away.. heh, cliché much.?

I frowned and it can be seen easily..it’s like written all over my face “hey I don’t feel good”..my friends knew and they remained silent, commenting not..i was laughing, singing, joking and they understood my situation..i mean, we all do have our moments of being somekinda loser right..haha..they were comforting, saying it’s okay to feel that way..they have felt it too, numerous times..therefore, they actually entertained me and telling some lame-stupid jokes..thanks.!

In sober truth, I was trying to conceal a monstrous lie..but but then I myself could not fathom my own feelings..in my heart, I felt as if I just emerged from the bottom of a lake and gasping for air..i found it tough for me to breathe..i wanted to burst into tears or lash out at myself for being so vulnerable..

That night, I slept around 2am and woke up at 5am..i couldnt shut my eyes then..i tried but I couldn’t..dah la arina’s mp3 has most of the emo songs..darn it.!ok I cried, abit only..a lil bit alright..i missed him (oh please scratch that) and most importantly I missed Asasi..i looked blankly around my room and I could visualized my room back then in Mawar, UITM..i wanted to climb up puteri’s, dayah’s or eyha’s bed..i know I will feel safer as they can provide me protection..protection from what.?protection from my own dismay..or or I wish I could knock on watip’s door and talk to her, I used to do that pretty much often..i was tantalized by visions of things I can no longer have..

I was hoping the next day would be better and yeahh honeyh I am apparently in a goooood mood today..i guess those are just temporary feelings and soon will fade away by itself.. com’on that wasn’t the first time and I get a bit emo-ish once a month, so it is an ordinary state of mind at some point..betul ke ape aku cakap..?anyhow, if u have never felt like this previously, u aren’t normal.. O_o

Sorry win, if one of the reasons u couldn’t fall asleep last night was because of me..yes indeed u’re a witch who has a strong spell on me..

Put, u called me a baby haa..??hey I manja je ok kekadang tu and as usual I memang mengadu kat u and yup I miss u la woman.!

Dayah, don’t attempt suicide please..u can get through whatever u’re facing now..u shall not give up..

Eyha, I miss u..it has been a long time since I last saw u..

Tip, ok before 3am ko free kalo aku na g panjat katil kau pun kan..

Sa, tik tok tik tok.. =)) I woveee u.! and so as u know, I am deeply worried about u..

Him, please leave my heart to me fully..!huh..

malcikgei

Im in love not

2010-10-03T09:13:00.004+08:00

hello mister October..

I am single for a year now..i broke up with my last boyfie around october last year..how did I survive.?i dont know..but im damn proud of myself, big round of applause people.!haha,lame..i am currently busy with studies and I am blessed to have wonderful friends and supportive family in my life..if I were to face everything alone, perhaps I would end up having a disastrous life..

U know, it seems amazing to me how some people can easily move on and be happy the next day with their new boyfriend..i settled this issue by assuming they just got lucky, having a better man next to them and it makes everything goes perfectly well..

I have not been thinking about him (definitely aint my last boyfie) nor anyone for quite some time now..again, I guess i really should thank my awesome close friends..though I do ponder and dwell upon him, I barely waste another teardrop for the boy whom doesn’t seem to care..yeah who could blame him anyway, he doesn’t know either..i have never told him my truest feelings..and it shall remain that way..

im not really interested in going out on a date..im not ready and i havent met any qualified bachelor, so what’s the point of seeing someone who isn't to my liking..

oh how I wish I had never know u and how I wish I had not been in relationships..it’s like some vampire spooky stuff..once u have tasted the blood, u’ll want more and more..and it’s also like sex..once u have known the pleasures in doing it, u can never stop..it’s like taking drugs too..once u have tried it, u’ll get addicted..

how to stop me from talking about boys or him specifically.?distract me please..tell me to shut up, offer me a hug, assure me u’ll be there if I ever need someone, comfort me when I feel insecure, tell me im still young, say I don’t need another pretty boy at this age, remind me of my priorities, do understand me, hold my hands and say this stormy feelings are just temporary..

I intend to mend my broken heart..with or without help..dont get your ass stuck in reminisces repeatedly..it’s a norm to think of someone who used to be so essential to u and be sad about it, brimming your eyes with tears but then gather your strength and stop crawling..stand up, start walking and don’t ever look back..it has been 2 year plus now, some are captivated on how I can still think of him occasionally..I know I am okay, because when I think of u, I am no longer crying like a pathetic girl I used to be..

my initial point : I love my friends

I think horr I am giving some kinda motivational post, and directly intended for myself..it’s like writing in my diary, except this diary is publicized and yeah I know all kinds of people will read this..be it strangers, random readers, friends who don’t care, friends who care enough and etc..

malcikgei

random cuteness

2010-10-03T09:06:00.003+08:00

To someone dear who gave me these, well thank you very much..

I thought u’ve forgotten all about me..And I’m simply glad that u don’t..

...............

malcikgei

kejahilan

2010-09-23T00:29:00.006+08:00

I believe all of us have accustomed with an issue called “Ganyang M’sia” or even the word “MALINGsia”

I’ve read several blogs and watched quite a number of videos concerning this ridiculous issue..here are some links, u can check ‘em out and make your own judgments..

click here, and here, vid here

Well, this is what I think..

So one of the bloggers mentioned about stopping TKI from sending labors to Malaysia..lemme tell u this, we don’t give a damn if u’re planning to do that..why.?malaysia can always acquire labors from other countries..but hey, what are u planning to do about thousands of unemployed labors coming home.??

Next, he said something about we rely on many intellectuals from Indonesia, who are so to speak contributing to our educational development..haha..im studying in one of the best universities in Malaysia and my friends are also now studying in other respected universities here, we HARDLY or SCARCELY or NEVER have any lecturers from Indonesia..in fact, NONE..!!thus, those small number of intellectuals which u claimed are living here, ‘helping our country’, do pull them back, we don’t mind..

One more thing, some of u Indonesians accused us for not being sympathetic to Indonesian maids, and yes there are cases of abusing and oppression (im not denying the facts)..however, compared to your citizen who are committing crimes in our country, what can u say about that..? we have to endure endless criminal activities, macam merompak, mencuri, membunuh, menyeludup, merogol, menetak dan lain-lain lah..

They say, do not let our students to obtain education from their universities or colleges..omg omg omg, we seriously could not be bothered by that u know..we have numerous outstanding higher learning centers and we have much more to offer..even if our students want to study abroad, we can always send them to Europe, China, India and other countries which can respect Malaysia and treat them (our students) well..

Okay, all of those I have mentioned are all the negative thoughts..

Now, lets us reverse to positive thoughts..

We are muslims, Indonesia and Malaysia have quite a large number of muslims..hence, rather than talking crap and hating each other, why don’t we make peace and think of something better, such us, let us be concerned with what is happening in Haiti, Gaza, Afghanistan, Palestine and so on..do some efforts to ease their misery..i mean, why are we looking for points to kill one another..?ingat nyawa kita macam kucing kah, 7 nyawa kononnya..

Apart from our religion, we are all basically of the same family..u see, our ancestors sailed along the inlets and they were merchants.. be it in Indonesia or malaysia, hundreds of years ago, they adapted to the culture, language, life style and etc..therefore, whatever we are practicing now comes from them, our exchanging cultures.. habis, kat Bali dan tempat-tempat lain yang menggunakan budaya Hindhu, ada negara India persoalkan hal ini..??kita saudara serumpun, sedar la sikit memang normal untuk bertukar budaya, jangan sempitkan pemikiran..plus we Malaysians never say anything concerning claiming dances, foods and other stuff as strictly ours.. bear in mind, we say “sebahagian daripada budaya” and not “sememangya budaya ini hak kami”.. indonesia and Malaysia are now existing for over 50 years, but before these countries were formed, nusantara telah wujud lebih lama..

Look how ignorant we have been, I am not being bias now..im saying this out lout generally..dua-dua pihak pun nak melatah, tolong la risaukan hal yang lebih kritikal..learn history, tolerate with others, don’t practice violence as a way to solve problems, turn to God and expand your way of thinking.. “jangan kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga”..

Fyi, im a mix of Malay and Javanese and im proud to be one..i come from a long line of Javanese family background..aku amal serba sedikit budaya Jawa, aku makan hidangan Jawa, keluarga dan saudara petah berbicara bahasa Jawa dan lain-lain..thus, this proves that we really exchange cultures and adapt to our surroundings..so whats the big deal..??im a Malaysian and I am practicing melayu + Javanese cultures.. duhh..

I have other links, which Im in favor with.. =)

vid here, another vid, one more vid..

These are just my random thoughts, i apologize if anyone sorta feels offended..

My friends know exactly how keen I can be when im interested in a subject..i can spend hours doing a lil research..sokay, it can be considered as general knowledge kan..

Feel free to share your opinion if u have any..

Haa habis da aku perah otak mikir, end of this issue

Mira (friend/roommate)= eh tak boleh ke share, kene ngaku hak eh pastu orang lain tak boleh pakai..camtu.?

Nuni (friend/roommate) = eh ko paham ke berita dalam bahasa Indonesia tu?

malcikgei

beautiful girls all over the world

2010-09-22T19:30:00.003+08:00

Those who have been acquainted with me will probably know I am generous in giving compliments (please don’t ask winnie, she’ll say the opposite,sebab sy susah puji dia, haha) ..anyways that’s not the point now..hurm there are many, hundreds, thousands, millions pretty girls out there..

I regard only some as the prettiest though..

Jessica alba- I love every single thing about her

Angelina jolie- I love her lips

Katy perry, oh I love her round eyes and her energy

“when u do something, give it a unique twist”-katy

Siti nurhaliza – I love her magnificent voice

Revalina s.temat – truly exotic Indonesian look

Aishwarya rai – incredible uuh yeahh

Zhao wei – she appears cute to me at all times

Hurm , these are only a few I can think of right now and straight away will come into my mind when I think of the word ‘beautiful’..there are countless more I cannot recall..

ok, ape lagi aku nak merapu

malcikgei

oh my..

2010-09-22T18:59:00.002+08:00

Do u have your personal dream car?

Well hell yeah I do.!

Bmw? Nope..this one falls on my 3^rd rank..

Mercedes, na’ah not this one..this falls on my 2^nd rank

Lamborghini..?? O_O haha, I’ll ride this in pride but nahh, I like it but nope..

Whoaaa..! yeahh…orgasm..boom..kedebushh..omg omg..!i can go crazy whenever I see this car..i know it’s not that expensive compared to the first three cars above, however Celica triggers an excitement inside of me, gosh I don’t know why..it’s not manufactured in Toyota factories anymore, so u can consider it as lame and yeah I am lame..haha

mimpi biar jauh, lol

malcikgei

my deepest condolence

2010-09-22T18:46:00.003+08:00

while Muslims were celebrating Raya, we received tragic news regarding the deaths of M. Rajoli, Datuk Sosilawati and her three friends..

hey Muslim friends , lets recite Al-FAtihah for them..

for non-Muslims, lets just pray that they'll rest in peace..

malcikgei

SELAMAT HAR RAYA

2010-09-06T23:50:00.002+08:00

hey people, selamat hari raya okayy..

jangan main mercun besar-besar kedebum kedebuk okayy..

jangan asek mintak duit raya okayy..

jangan asek makan okayy..

jangan asek berjalan tak hengat okayy..

jangan lupa pada yang kurang bernasib baik okayy..

jangan lupa ganti puasa nanti okayy..

jangan lupa raya dengan aku jugak okayy..

akhirnya, forgive me for all of my wrongdoings..i ain't perfect..

friends, nanti aku nak pergi open house korang..nisa, noor aku dah aim siap-siap..!

salam raya,

malcikgei @ aleya

glad i found you

2010-09-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

Dayah and puteri

two of my favourite angels.. =)

I love u girls, titik.! Haha

Dayah, thanks for the post u did on me..there are several things u got wrong though..it’s okay, maybe I do have longer memory span on certain things..hee

Then I read your post on puteri, without my consent, few drops of tears rolled down on my cheek..

Do u know why.?

In my mind I thought, how distance has been cruel to us, how far I am lagging behind, how I have been missing so many things and etc..

I just don’t know what to say and what to assume anymore..

Dayah ,I’ve done my best, u know me well kan, u know how I feel..

If I am really worth of everything u have said to me, please prove it.?

I do not wish to lose our friendships as I value it to a great extent..

Eyha

We have been together since Asasi and I hope u will never feel abandoned by me ..

I am constantly trying to meet up with u, catch up with whatever issue that may bothers u, find my free time just to listen to u..

I have told u numerous times, if u have queasy feelings or problems, u know I’ll be there..

Just drop me a message or call me, I’ll try my best to get my ass off to 12^th college..not a big deal anyways, u know better other things I am capable of doing for u..

“u have been with me through thick and thin, I am blessed to have u”-eyha

nisa

I am touched upon reading your post about me.. I mean yeah, we do have our differences, but we managed to handle them so that they won’t affect our friendship..

I love texting u whenever I am free eventhough u live just a floor above mine in college..

I like to tease u until u get annoyed (ok I admit maybe I did cross the line several times,sorry)

I know we will always be the observer..we know when our friends are no longer the same, when they act awkwardly and so on..

I am glad to have u next to me most of the time..

“if there’s anything just text me, u know I’ll always reply” –nisa

And oh, makacih sebab awak puji dan suka post sy berjudul ‘YOU’..sy jujur kan kan..

p/s :I love all of u.! through any darkness, I know I’ll find your hands reaching out for me..

thanks for everything

sorry post neh cam kelam-kabut..

aku kat 'mamak' neh, bising and tengah kalut..hee

malcikgei

YOU

2010-09-03T04:16:00.004+08:00

I remember walking frm fac to college just to say “im sorry, it was a stupid prank”

I remember going down to café just to accompany u even though I was on diet

I remember walking in the rain with u for the TV program

I remember talking to u for hours, non-stop

I remember buying u your favorite sushi

I remember taking the public transportation because I promised u to watch the movie

I remember running over to your room when u were sick

I remember calling you just to share my silly thoughts

I remember killing my time to escort u

I remember u waited for me for hours when I was in pain

I remember u followed me for dinner when I was sick

I remember u came over to check on me

I remember u entertained me when I was in misery

I remember how u made me laugh

I remember how u felt real bad when u were stuck in the middle between..u know

I remember how convinced u were with me when others did not

I remember many things, told u I have longer memory span.

However, I just can’t remember one thing, when actually did we get closer..

I hate the fact that u’re able to read my mind..u know EXACTLY what I think, what I feel..u make it hard for me to hide whatever that is inside of me..even when I lied to your face, u knew but u said nothing since u know me better..i can read your thoughts, u can read mine..i can cry for u ‘ONE’ and I bet u can ‘TWO’.. ;)

“if anything happen to u, think I’ll cry la”

“u are on top of my rank for friends ”.

“u’ll never be replaced”

“smell my armpit and u’ll be smarter”

“u want me to come over.?im comin in 5 mins”

“u lost your cardigan? I’ll buy u new one la”

“I love my new profile picture”

~~see, i even remember the details, things that u said.. <3

Hey YOU, yes YOU..YOU know who YOU are.. =)

and btw, before any of u out there misunderstand the gender of YOU, i might need to tell u guys something 1st..YOU is a female..so dont read this post like u're reading a lovey dovey letter..instead, be me, i think of a friend..

malcikgei

do u know.?

2010-09-03T03:54:00.000+08:00

that, I miss you..

The ‘old’ you..

T_T

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 13

2010-08-11T22:18:00.002+08:00

My heart started to sing beautiful songs..

I was glad when it was all over..glad I took the chance and talked to u..

Glad I was able to move on, turn over a new page and forgive others..

I do not wish to be cautious whenever u’re around..

I want to be myself, laugh with u, share my thoughts and feelings..

I want all of us to be truly happy again..

Happy with the fact that, we have each other’s back..

I feel there is no more wall..it collapsed the day I learnt how to let go..

I am able to show u my true colours for a second time..

Hey u both, I know u’re reading..

Trust me, I value u guys genuinely..

~THE END~

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson,

malcikgei

budaya

2010-08-11T22:15:00.001+08:00

everybody is stressing on reading nowadays..

malas, =o

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 12

2010-08-09T01:28:00.001+08:00

U both should have talk to me..ask me what was going on, why I was busy like no one else..

Instead u talked between u two..i know u weren’t talking bad stuff behind my back..

But, please..just ask, I know u care..

Sometimes, the damage is on me..

How would u like it if I were to say, “U ARE NOT CAPABLE..” hows that sound..?

Crying in the middle of the night..having the words repeating on your mind like a song..pretending u’re completely okay..hold your tears until not even a single soul sees u..thinking of your weaknesses again and again..do all these look great..?

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.
malcikgei

freedom

2010-08-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

i know i've not been updating my blog..

been busy u know..

okay, i'll just briefly tell u guys what happened for the past couple weeks ago..

reunion TESL :

it was fun eventhough i have to admit,i was super tired that day due to settling some stuff regarding my project..

still, off to shah alam around 6pm..

we were stuck in the car for two hours because of massive traffic jam..darn it..!

hahah but but, while we were waiting, i managed to get out of the car while making my cool face as usual and went to buy some otak-otak for me and my friends..

my friends were laughing and in the 1st place, i had no idea either why i did it..i caught the auntie next to us was looking at me weirdly..

whatever, i guess it was kinda of like being spontaneous..

okay then after we arrived, we met our friends and yada yada yada..the session for ngumpat-ing la kan..

finally he came, as expected..

i didnt even look at him, i have my reasons..

well, i tried to force a smile through out the reunion..

i had the craziest head ache ever..

i threw up once i reached UM..i felt week and so i took my meds and off to bed..

i had a dream, it was him..

malam alum9 2010:

i was the p.pengarah protocol..

i got almost all the heaviest tasks..

i was sweating like hell most of the time..

i was running here and there..

i almost cry..

i slept at 3 or 4am for four consecutive days..

i was tremendously physically and mentally exhausted..

however, i am thankful the event was a blast..!!!

thanks to akmal, kucai, bahau, mira, nuni, rasz, my AJK and other biro's AJK, sir ramzi, abg jalil, college's staff..

in short, thanks to everybody who helped out.. =)

both of the pondok memory was fantastic, the bike and bicycle were real classic, platform was cool, the arrangements of the hall was great, MC were good, props were excellent and etc..

i couldnt have done it if it were me doing everything alone..

thus, once again, thanks people..!! =)

in the end, i was satisfied, i was smiling..

i got all kinds of compliment.. O-o

it felt really awesome..!

sorry everyone if i ever made a face or anything, it wasnt the real me..it was not my intention to get emo or pissed...maybe i was a lil stressed out and tired..

btw, i looooveeee leonardo and sara hani when they sang the medley of sway and fantasia bulan madu..

awww, incredible okayy..!!

ermm, i guess this is it for now..

im free and available for my close friends..

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 11

2010-07-29T23:39:00.001+08:00

Angels were constantly asking how I was..

I kept saying I was ok, except my heart had queasy feelings..

They told me to confront u, and so I did one night..

U saw I burst into tears and u sat there, frozen..

I was talking and u were listening..

Finally, u spoke..

U said actually u and our other dear friend believed I was being bullied..

U guys weren’t satisfied and u thought I was doing things for nothing..

I replied by saying all I did, those were my own responsibilities and other things, there’s nothing wrong for me to lend a hand because I might be needing one in the future..

Again, u lost your words..u mumbled u were just telling what was there in your mind, it was just the way u delivered ‘em probably wrong..

To me, it was wrong..

If it's very painful for you to criticize your friends - you're safe in doing it. But if you take the slightest pleasure in it, that's the time to hold your tongue. ~Alice Duer Miller

malcikgei

Worst meeting

2010-07-29T01:30:00.002+08:00

Everything went smoothly

Except at one point where some people mentioned 'something'

Obviously 'something' about me

I had no idea why did I cry

It was such a silly situation

I was embarrassed

I was annoyed by that 'something'

My question is “kenape la org susah sgt na paham bile aku dah explain something tu banyak kali..??!”

I HATE LAME-SAME-OLD JOKE..!!get it..??

Bosan tahu tak kalau ulang bende yg sama..?

Back then, people used to tease me abt that 'something', I was pissed but I didn’t show my emotion

Gosh, YES I have my reasons for acting like a drama queen during that meeting

But I couldn’t help it..

anyhow, please stop teasing me abt that 'something'..

It’s irritating..!

I know u can do better.. =)

p/s ni bukan entri emo but just an honest thought

malcikgei

we deserve some appreciation..! =)

2010-07-16T01:50:00.003+08:00

the magazine is finally out, waiting to be distributed..

i found out, only my team who did all of the reports..

eventhough there are many Kucai did not publish because there's an issue concerning cost..

still, i am proud of myself and definitely with my girls..!

without them , it would be quite impossible for me to do everything on my own..

hey babes, we need some credit..!

so don't be shy, u deserve all the compliments because of the hard work..

i am committed (so far,haha) with whatever i'm doing so i'm real glad i have friends whom i can rely on..

thus, NURUL HANISAH BAHARUDDIN AND NELLY SOH, THANKS FOR SUPPORTING ME, WE WERE A TEAM AND WILL ALWAYS BE..

love u girlfriends,

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 10

2010-07-16T01:47:00.002+08:00

One day, in kfc..we were eating and I told u how upset I was..

U were trying to defend yourself or should I say, explaining..

None got accepted by me because I gave u my reasons from my point of view..

U couldn’t came out with anything else weren’t u..because deep down I can see from your eyes, I was right and u were wrong..

Next thing I know, u tried to help me as much as u could..

I honestly appreciate that..

Felt like a burden was lifted and I was in a very good mood, again..

"The best rule of friendship is to keep your heart a little softer than your head. "

malcikgei

show some gratitude and then, please shut him up..!

2010-07-15T19:06:00.004+08:00

ok, the title refers to two different things..

the first one is regarding my result..

honestly, as everybody knew, i was pissed off..

because i think i got an unfair result, whereas my effort was beyond my own expectation..

whatever, after i thought about it thoroughly, i think it is best to let it go, nothing can be done anyways..

so i did alot of self-reflection..

my friends are right, i should be more thankful..

i had been forgetting the Mighty Allah, hence of course i thought of Him..

He who knows best, there must be reasons behind all this..

so here i am, writing about showing some gratitude..

i am thankful because i'm still breathing and have such a wonderful life, plus surrounded by lovely family and awesome friends.. <3

the second part is about my lecturer who gave me C..

haha, i know right..i just mentioned about letting go..

such a coincidence, he's my lecturer for another subject we'll be taking this sem..

haihh, i really cant stand him la..!

looking at his face makes me feel unsatisfied, and i can imagine myself strangling him..lalala

i was sitting next to winnie, when he was babbling (like always) and then winnie was actually 'tak duduk diam'..

she was eager and really want to say it out loud that i submitted all the assgs, did all the tasks, attended the classes and etc..

taching tau tetibe sebab yela that woman sangat la semangat je na tegakkan kebenaran..!

i was listening la jgk to his lecture while winnie, ntah la ape dia buat..she even wrote in her note 'lalalalala' sedangkan orang tua tu suruh tulis soalan ape tah..

nevertheless, we are going to check out how 'unit beruniform' will look like..

because if i cant shut him up (the lecturer), at least maybe it is better i do not take his class, naty buat dosa je aku kutuk dia tiap hari..

sem neh nak malas boleh..?

tp lebihkan ibadat je (hee, azam aku tiap sem)

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 9

2010-07-13T19:23:00.000+08:00

It hurts looking at u, talking to u or think of what u said..My eyes filled with tears easily..

Thus I found my solution by ignoring u..answered to your questions only when necessary..

Angles voiced out and reminded me to stay away..maybe it was better for that particular range of time..

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 8

2010-07-07T19:27:00.003+08:00

(from now on, there will be two “you’s”, those who knew, u’ll surely know how to differentiate..those who aren’t, sorry u might wanna stop reading before u get dizzy)

Do u really look down on me..??

Yeahh perhaps I’m not a bright student as u do..

I’m not from a top or high rank school..

My results were ok, not as excellent as yours..

Do u really think I’m not capable..??

A lot of times these questions occur, and I would involuntarily believe the answer for all is yes..

An angel asked whether this kind of situation had happened before..

I think about it thoroughly, flash-backing my past..i found none..

Back then, I was trusted to carry out many things in school, teachers gave me many roles despite the fact me and friends were quite naughty, had some discipline stuff..

Still, I was elected to be a leader..

In my groups of friends, they have never said anything which can make me doubt myself..

They followed my commands dutifully..

Oh maybe they believe in me or, maybe they think of me as a friend thus they didn’t go against me..

Why is it though, being in um makes me think the worst of myself..hurmm environment, competition or my own friends..?i have no idea either..

Why is it I always feel as if u guys won’t give me a chance and even if I was responsible for assignments, projects and etc, people took me for granted..?this goes out generally.!

Is it true or not I always tell what are the tasks, months before the dateline..is it true or not I always remind u what to do, what to get, what to find and etc..i know u knew what needed to be done but I was only reminding..

In the end however, it’s up to a person’s integrity whether to get it done or to leave it..

And…… finally, I’m the one who will be frustrated, because I trusted whoever works under my instructions. .

I have faith in people, a promise must to be kept..

I aint that strict, I don’t to want push people..afraid they might get bored looking at my face..

Whatever it is, I was affected severely by this issue..

And I loathed what I was feeling..

However, u were never concerned..

"It is important to our friends to believe that we are unreservedly frank with them, and important to friendship that we are not. "

malcikgei

that's my stuff.. full stop..!!

2010-07-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

It annoys me when people kacau-ing my stuff

Not that I am such a stingy a.k.a kede person but this is about my rights and privacy..

At home, I would definitely know when my belongings were touched, taken out and etc..

My brother totally will be hearing me screaming and interrogating him..as if I have lost a million dollars in cash..

With my friends, hurm thank god they usually ask me first..

Whatever, that’s simply me..

I will let u use, borrow my stuff but do not take ‘em behind my back..

We have procedures..humans live by rules and values..

1. 1. Ask

2. 2.Allow me to answer

3. 3.Take it/leave it (kalo sy x bagi la)

4. 4.“tak bagi mengata..dah bagi buat harta..”

5. 5. Return ‘em

6. 6. Say thank u

actually something happened, I was making a video for a friend, tengah nak compile segala la..one of the videos was in the camera..tetbe mase aku nak ambik bagi masuk laptop, aik hilang pulak satu video..i was furios and tears were rolling down my cheek..bukan ape, macam frust because I had put much effort and it was hard enough for me to find free time since I was working kan recently..so that is the reason behind this emo post..!lain kali nak ambik barang tu lemme know dulu sebab mesti ade wasiat na cakap, cthnya: jangan delete ape2 noh..*sigh

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 7

2010-07-01T18:55:00.001+08:00

Let’s cut this short and move on from this story

……………

“aleya..babe, u cant handle everything laa..u just can’t..bukan semua ko bole halang, ko bole control, in charge..pe ko buat da okay tapi stop trying to control everything..”

Sentap.!that was what I felt..nevertheless, I remained completely silent..

“does she think im trying to be bossy, gila kuasa and kalut je lebih.?” My mind exclaimed

“…….(and she went on)….”

Suddenly

“because u’re not capable..sorryyy…”

Hey, I knew that last voice..it was, her, my friend who thought honesty is vital in friendship..but how could u..??to me..?!

Too bad, I don’t speak loudly as her..i keep things in my heart, afraid of what harm it could bring..

I was struggling to find my voice when iza came to the rescue..she wasn’t complaining nor commenting, instead she was asking what did I have in mind, what are my next plans..

….

I just wanted to be out of the room as soon as I could..meanwhile, I went on pretending I was fine..as if, it didn't leave a scratch in my heart..

Hey friends, in the first place..i was just asking..only asking..

malcikgei

i like you, i really do..

2010-05-10T19:37:00.004+08:00

hye hello..

i have a crush on this dude whom i call, mister crushie..he's hot, but im not looking at his good looks..but i think i like him because i can see some qualities which i admire..he's a quiet person, that is the most incredible quality because it's the opposite of my nature..the way he walk, his body, his eyes, his charming smile, his lips, his everything..! i love 'em..!! =)

we speak through the eyes i think..that's because, we gazed at one another like hundreds time..once, i was in the college's jamming studio and he's busy with a project..i was abt to shut the door when he passed by..we stood there like we were in great shock, a wonderful shock though..we looked at each other for 5-10 seconds,eye to eye contact..even when we had a meeting together, and there was an ice breaking session..he introduced himself by looking into my eyes, wow that actually got into my nerves..!there were other situations too, but we never spoke..i do not wish to look desperate or too obvious..

well, recently i didnt know why i cried because of him..okay, first of all, it was because of my dear friend..but then i knew, the tears were because of him too..gosh, really i thought of him as another crush..why was i crying though..?i couldnt find the answer..now, i think maybe all the eye connections thingy meant nothing to him..i am the one who is over the moon when he looked right into my eyes..maybe nothing was in his head, im trying to be realistic here..i spoke to my besties, some told me there might be a chance, some said i think about this way too much and lead the small things to somewhere else..whatever it is, mister crushie, i have a confession, I REALLY LIKE YOU..!

and not forgetting, there are many girls waiting to be with him or trying to be with him now..i know i am nobody, i am not that pretty, not that perfect and not that sexy either..

But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She’s cheer captain
And I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you’re looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
been here all along so why can’t you see, you
You belong with me

And you’ve got a smile that could light up this whole town
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
Standing by and waiting at your back door
all this time how could you not know
Baby….
You belong with me

Think I know where you belong
Think I know it’s with me…

Can’t you see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along
So why can’t you see
You belong with me

(you belong with me-taylor swift)

a confession,
malcikgei

Imma vampire.!

2010-05-02T18:34:00.009+08:00

Hey hello..

Last wedneday, I went to the dentistry to get my wisdom tooth removed..

So yea I did..i reached PPUM at 9.30 sharp I guess..thanks to nuni for the transportation, yayy..waited till 10 am before being asked to take my breakfast because after the operation I wouldn’t be able to eat anything till dinner time..so I went to get my brunch with Winnie and went to the doctor’s room at 11am..fyi, the doctor’s name is ridwan and he is super cute, I think he’s married though so bye bye chance..!anyways, there was another doctor, female..she and a few assistant nurses came and explained to me precisely the procedures and what is gonna happen next..consequences, the pain, the do’s and don’ts and they even asked me to do the surgery after my exam is over which is on 4^th..i declined because I considered I am free at the moment, I’ll be busy after my last paper and I need to take fifi exploring kedah/sg. Petani later..so I said “tak pe, sy redha..insyallah ok kot naty..by the time sy semboh, sempat sy belajar agaknye,ngee..” while making my sweet innocent face..hence, my word is their command, haha..

~these are what actually had been goin on that day,

Put a blanket on my body
Setting the instruments and etc
Injected me with I dunno, ubat kebas I la kot (sumpah jarum panjang x hengat and besar)
Waited till I feel the numbness and cover my eyes with another small pice of cloth..
Put a ‘getah’ thingy that will hold my mouth wide open
Sterile my mouth and etc (doctor did this, gosokkan gigi sy pakai tangan beliau yang dah ade sarung tangan or course)
Operation started and I closed my eyes, dowan to see what are they gonna do next
Think he used a operation knife tu kikis-kikis sekililing my tooth
Kikis punya kikis lagi sambil sucked the blood
Gerudi plak sana sini to make larger hole (removing bones that held the tooth)
Pulled the tooth (became two pieces da, god knows why gigi terbelah dua)
Took abit of my gum for um’s current research (I contributed tau for the research, yayy)
Jahit around 5-6 stitches
Woke up with a smile, took my meds, tongue still feeling numbed, listened attentively to their advice and instructions
Bye bye hot doctor and lovely people..!!

Oh I heard if I were going to a private clinic, the cost maybe around 1k.. O_o

And oh, while they were covering my eyes, I said this “ eh macam dalam filem p.ramlee”..the doctor replied “aah aleya, macam filem ibu mertuaku kan ke madu tiga ntah..” erk, bole plak melayan krenah aku kan..haha, even after the operation ended, I smiled kan..the two doctors were talking and I heard “ ok la ni kot..bangon jek da senyom..mmg first time patient cmni..”sorry yo baby, I am hyper yo..!!

Went straight to Winnie, cian dia tunggu lama ea..wanted to mengadu, she laughed at me instead.. O_o what the tutt..!!she said I looked funny talking like that..hey, lidah sy numb ok..! T_T she told me she had watched ‘main-main hantu, berita terkini, hati lelaki, sempurnakan harimu and wanita hari ini’ on tv3 while waiting for me..huhu

Got back in my room..asked for wtip and she laughed too..!! haihh..soon after the numbness was gone, I was starting to feel the pain..i told her with sparkles in my eyes..sparkles la sangat air mata tu kan, lol..hukhuk, tears were rolling down my face..she got freaked out, haa tau pon hang gelabah nohh..kot nak gelak kat aku lagi, baru ingat aku neh cam raja lawak ke..ayoyoyo..took my pain killer anyway, sakit oh..!

I spent a couple of days in bed, didn’t do much..on9, mengada, mengadu, makan, tahan sakit, nangis, tengok movies..

Watip had been a good nurse, a serious one though..she took care of me since she’s the nearest and she loves me a lot la tuuu, haha..tolong bukakkan movie, tengok saya buang kapas, tengok saya nangis, bagi sy ubat..lalalalala

Winnie asked me frequently how am I, have I took my meds and etc..she’s the nurse on charity department..i even asked her to come over, saje nak manjaaaaaa..of course she came.! =) she gave me a kissed on my forehead..

Nelly soh.! She would probably the doctor because she just checking up on me regularly, reminds me to take my meds, asks how am I feeling, don’t forget this and that..

Roommies were considerate..!they helped me during the time I was in pain, bought me food and etc la..

Friends on fb, haaaa they gave me advices through fb je..anyway, it’s the thought that counts..thanks sweethearts..!nisa, tira, iza, mijot, eyha, dayah, put, arif, tikah, ayeen and others are the people who constantly wrote on my wall..yehaaaaa, I feel the love yaw..!

Mister baskie/ mpp/ kerempeng/ fashion crime/ inner isn’t tired of melayah kerenah beta..thanks..! ;D

Oh the best part about this minor operation is I get to be a vampire for three days..!sumpah I can taste the blood in my mouth, then tringat I could be a blood sucker pastu teros tengok twilight, new moon tau..wahh..!and and, i cannot eat properly nor talk correctly..! T_____T

my wisdom tooth

bye bye gigi..!

demo doctors gerudi mulut sy..

bangga ye doctor tu dapat gigi.!huh

ouch..!

haaaa, the one that PPUM has is pink in colour..

thanks, friends..

loyal friends laugh at your jokes when they arent so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they arent so bad.. =)

glad i am surrounded by those friends..

malcikgei

....dont give up okay.!

2010-04-30T02:29:00.004+08:00

eyha >>

she was sad after couldnt really answer her killer paper..law babe, of course it isnt easy kan syg..so i decided to check on her..i went to 12th college after i was done with dentistry thingy on tues..took my lunch there and went straight to her room claiming for her service..haha, aleya aleya keje ko mrepek kan..! O_o

ok ok serious, i helped her packing since her room was in a mess..then i fell asleep..sejok woh bilik beliau..! suke suke..!oh forgot plak, i brought her ferrero rocher with little notes saying 'good luck' because she still has couple of papers to go..and she put it in her purse..i took a quick snap of her purse with that lil notes in while she was in the toilet..i find that is veryyyyyyyyyyy sweet macam gula batu.!!!

dayah >>

she texts me regularly updating on her condition and crisis with friends over there..sayang, sometimes people do not understand your joke la..maybe the way u expressed what was on your mind a bit harsh kot for some people..its okay, try to do as i say and we'll see eh how it goes..for now, whats more important is, FOCUS ON YOUR UPCOMING PAPERS..!!! told u i found a new song for u to hear kan though the song isnt new after all..haha

seconds hours so many days

You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you've lost your way
What if your chances are already gone

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there's nothing between you and your dreams

(kris allen - no boundaries)

good luck angels,

i know u can do it..

com'on go kill the killer papers..

lawyers help in making the law remember..?*hugs

malcikgei

a quick recap

2010-04-29T23:16:00.013+08:00

23rd

i was rushing after finished with the Falsafah paper on 23rd..went to pejabat pos, put n reen's burf card got settled.!got back in college and changed the t-shirt..went to mid with him..watched 'Losers', it was cool yaw.!got lost in the parking lot for 30mins..wtf..! i was pissed because simple thing like that pon he cant handle..i know im also at fault cuz i was busy walking and didnt notice the number for the parking lot but he should have known better la..we went back and forth looking for the car..thank god i asked for some help from the guy who runs the place, he's in charge sorta..so we found it, little did we know, we passed by the car hundreds of time tau but he couldnt recognized his own car, erk what the.!haishh, mmg mara la beta.. O_o then traffic jammed, alhamdulillah tak telopeh bas..

reached home, surrounded by familiar faces..i had some chit chat with my dearly cool siblings and my beloved mom forced me to eat since the bas didnt stop at all..akak bought me a bag and i also got a watch from 'ellesse'..those are super duper hot.! akak i love u and i thank the korea gov for the money u're spending on me..lalalala,,plus she bought some candies, korean tradisional kuih, peanuts and etc..she showed me her stuff and i envy her alot and she knows..she has nicer bag than the one she bought for me and she has my desired laptop, gosh ok that laptop makes me hate u..! haha..

24th

the next day, i woke up early, HAD TO..! ergh.!helped here and there, yada yada yada..took my bath and learned how to put on some make up, thanks couzie.!the house was full of people, da la small house jek, padat plak..but i dont mind since they are all family members.. =) riasz and nabila came as well..!they are my bestest cousins..we talked and planned for a night out..after everything was settled, i had no more energy and i didnt study at all for my next paper..that night we went out, my hometown was quite boring though that night..yet, i had amazing people with me so i dont really mind..

25th

on 25th i went to my father's house early in the morning..had my lunch there and rushed to get my bags kat amanjaya then had to drive the car like hell because we were already late to check in for the flight..haha..damn penat punya laju bawak kereta ala-ala pro, skalik flight delayed..!waited for an hour before the departure..got in LCCT, grab some dinner with akak, took the bus and headed to kl sentral..

26th..!!

haaaa, tengah hari ada paper, pagi-pagi buta baru belek kertas..! haihh... =( thank god dapat da markah utk paper neh and yayy my boobies set sume got As uols..!!

so that was it, pepaham sendiri la bace eh..

malas cerita panjang lebar la..huhu

plus im having a pain in mouth, not in the ass eh..

thus i cant think much, hehe chewahh alasan tanak gah plak.. lol

oh, puhleeeaaaaseee gimme this laptop..!

i hate u for this super hot thing.!

saya bawak beg ni jek travel.. =)

beg akak yang penuh harta..mau meraung dia kalo hilang.!haha

oh oh her nicer bag, ni la..! coklat coklat..

some of her stuff, mascara..

her konon cool phone..

ini while waiting for riasz..

candid, credit to nabila..

haa the actual spot where we parked the car..

his plat number which he cant remember tu..lol

paper, balik, kenduri, gonjeng, bebel, karok, terbang, paper

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 6

2010-04-26T18:49:00.003+08:00

haha, so i have this angel who thinks im weird, i can imagine she's making that face, that particular face.. *angkat kening muka pelik..

ok syg, sy intro sikit2 so it can easily be understood by all..u know how freak i am at times.. lol

.............

Your voice, the few words, the really short sentence

Stuck there, it was repeating by itself

It had a system called 'Self-repetition'

U were the new 'artist' of a recording company named "inside the mind of aleya"

I kept hearing the ‘song’, your short ‘song’

Everytime I saw u or I thought of u or I heard ur name

The ‘song’ played by itself, on my psyche involuntarily

I heard its echoes through my ears

As if the song was recorded yesterday and it’s a new track

........................

u may think i am making a fuss over this but imagine if someone dear to u 'sing' the 'song' in front of your pretty face..how would u feel..?just imagine..

plus u also knew i am bad in confronting someone especially when it comes to, a good friend of mine, or should i say a bestie who knows me inside out..as in my past and present..

sumpah aku semak dengar 'lagu' tu

tapi aku rase sedih jugak

there were two singers anyway but one voice was louder that the other..

glad this issue is over,

and i am using the past tense

malcikgei

what do i want, what do i need..??

2010-04-22T16:07:00.004+08:00

i admit, i easily like someone as in from his look..most of my exs, well quite good looking..they are not that extra hot like aaron aziz nor like zac efron..yet, they have the looks..however, as the saying goes 'dont judge a book by its cover'..they turned out to be, frustrating..

i've had too many of them, none was able to prove that a guy is worth my love..fine, there was one but he's slipped out of my hand because i was so sure he would always be mine..after living in this world for almost 20 years, i've fallen in love only once and no replacement then..there was a moment when i thought it would be the second time of me falling in love, but the person was only a distraction..

too many tears being shed..and i think i've had enough..now, i've been single for 6 months approximately, a long duration of time for someone like me who is not capable in handling loneliness..recently, i am seeing someone..yet, he has only a few of my desired qualities, really countable qualities and yup, u got it right..outside qualities..

i know i am such a mean and arrogant, perasan plus poyo jek..i cant help it, watip says 'aleya, he isnt your type and yada yada yada..'..i know she has the point, she knows me pretty well..and some besties do too..but but, listen..! i think i like him..doesnt that count..?

he has the inner qualities which i think girls will be searching for those qualities in a guy..its like this, he has the inner side that i admire and i think i love the particular side he has..he has the look but less than what i have been looking for..still, according to my previous experiences, the look is temporary and doesnt determine what kind of person a person is..

frequently i find myself stuck in a situation where i couldnt give the answer..what do i want and what do i need actually..have i think about this thoroughly..*sigh..i dont know and i do not want to waste my time on things like this whereas i have final examination at the moment..oh oh, wish me luck people..!! may the Lord be with me and mercy upon me..lecturers, puhhleaaaseee la pemurah sikit eh bagi markah naty..!

anyways, in short, i dont really know..however, i am sure of one thing..i like him and i wanna get to know him more..sometimes, the first impression is not always correct..so let us wait and we shall see if he is the person i thought he is..hey, i've got plenty of time to kill..no rush here, right..?lol

When I saw you over there,

I didn't mean to stare,

But my mind was everywhere,

I wanna know you

Gonna guess that you're the kind,

to say what's on your mind,

But you listen when I have something to show you.

I wanna know you!

I wanna go there, where you go

I wanna find out what you know

And maybe someday down the road,

I'll sit back and say to my self, 'yeah I thought so'

You smile, never shout.

You stand out in a crowd

You make the best of every situation

Correct me if I'm wrong,

You're fragile and you're strong

a beautiful and perfect combination

(miley and david- i wanna know u)

malcikgei

bebai bebal / part 5

2010-04-22T15:55:00.005+08:00

I saw u, but my voice wont come out

Errr, what should I say

Babe, aku de mende na ckp..?

Babe, aku nak ko explain.?

Babe, pahal kau cakap cmtu.?

Babe, ko memang rase ko betul ke..?

Babe, aku kawan ko ke tak..?

Aku tak tahu nak cakap ape

One thing for sure,

Congrats..!!

Anda telah menjadi 'artis rakaman' di bawah label saya..!! O_o

told u, i wanna continue with the 'bebai bebal thingy'

no offence here..i only want to finish what i've started

malcikgei

couldn't get any better

2010-04-11T13:43:00.007+08:00

The time was jealous of me, I had nomore energy, but I’m happy..

8/4/10

Lemme tell u what I did one day before our last day of lecture on thurs..we had to submit our philosophy assg plus I haven’t done my listening and speaking assg, huhu..so on Wednesday night, I did 0n9 my fb, teasing my friends, u know, I always do what I love to do..ok, around 1am I focused on L & S assg, found a few sources, copy paste here and there, rephrase, goreg-goreng and done at 3am approximately..!went to fify’s room, got my last min assg printed out.. Only then, I started on philosophy..i edited some parts, add some info and etc..

went to bed at 5am I guess, woke up at 7am and went for the class at 8am..then, errr got the philosophy thingy done and off to midvalley for iza’s birthday celebration..at 3pm we were in Templer’s class, I was extremely sleepy..got back in my room at 4 something, I took a nap at 5pm and got up at 6.30 because I need to go to UKM for puteri’s theater..

I made it to ukm finally with mie and siew..i actually missed puteri’s part by 5 mins, shoot..!! I was frustrated since I went all the way from KL and I was honestly tired plus I MISSED HER PART..oh bebeh, im soo sorry..i know u understand but haiihh, I’m not satisfied..ok talking about her, urm she was acting like a bitch (haha, as usual, but I know she loves me) and it was awkward for 10mins when I was in front of her..when I think about it, yeaa it makes sense because it has been a year since our last reunion on my birthday..after I left, she texted me saying sorry she’s a bit segan and all, she appreciates what I’ve done and she loves me so much..well honey, no biggie really..i did talk to emong, echah, amoi, zikry and others but it took them some time before they recognize me..(lambot lulus suda talak cam wa meh)..

At 11pm after my departure from ukm, mie was speeding his car..my friends in college were waiting for me, its arina’s birthday so they made a prank on her and her scandal sorta had bought a cake..we celebrated her birthday in café, she was blushing yet pissed caused by the stupid prank, haha..then at 12 I wanted to grab my dinner at SS2, swear I was starving like hell..but the gate was locked, stupid guard..no one was at the gate, we waited for 1 hour before the annoying guard came and unlocked the gate..so basically I had supper + dinner at 2 am and reached college at 3am..

9/4/10

After lunch with nisa, arina called asking me to accompany her for some shopping in Bangsar..it rained awhile, nonetheless we found a sexy yet appropriate dress for her..the theme of her birthday was black, white and red..theme song was everytime we touch by cascada..she invited only family and girl friends, thus I call it ‘lessy party’..

We rushed here and there,I hate traffic jam fyi, finally checked in the hotel room at 8pm, the ceremony supposedly start at 9..we had games, I ate a lot as well, I screamed, got hyper and etc..went to a pub named ‘pulse’, being surrounded by arina’s mom, lil brother, uncles, her brother’s friends..felt secure though.. =) went up to room at 3, had some chat and we continued with a lil private party, there were 6 of us left (rina, win, su, shira, nad), still it was amazing..slept at 6am and the girls forced me to wake up at 9am..korang punya bunyi pun dah macam alarm tau..jumped into the pool , yada yada yada and we left the hotel at 1pm..everybody was quiet on the way back to college, haha freaking exhausted eh..grabbed a quick lunch in Hartamas, then after I reached college, sumpah tidorrrrr from 3pm till 7pm.. O_o

now, let the pictures do the talking..beta letih..lol

iza's birthday >

situasi :- jom ambk gambr buat-buat gelak..macam mane nak buat-buat gelak..hahahhahahahahahhhaha...(ketepek, menu jatoh kat meja blkg, wooopss *malu mode activated*)

na jgk nisa tu haa..

ok, makan ape sedap..?erk

UKM's theater >

me and ecah

i love u too put, err so much, much much, too much.?hee

me and emong

arina's lessy (birthday) party >

next to swimming pool

next to 'Pulse'

our lil PP

in front of the hotel room

In short, I had the amazing 3 days packed with fun, exhaustion, dizziness..

Thanks to the Boobies set, iza especially for the magnificent birthday lunch, *burpp..

Thanks to mie, siew, put for the mind blowing trip..(1^st time g UKM)

Thanks to arina, win, su, nad, shira, rina’s family, non, mira, rasz, resty and meme for the coolest 'lessy party’..

malcikgei

the BOOBIES SET

2010-04-07T02:00:00.005+08:00

recently i noticed a lot of things..watip says maybe i am the one who pay to much attention on small details which she doesn't even become aware of..but, that is me..maybe i acknowledge certain teeny weeny stuff that u might see it as unnecessary..yeah perhaps perhaps, i didn't say no nor did i say yes to her statement..i am still wondering whether being an observant on someone's inside is a bad thing or the opposite..

watip is also an observant..nonetheless, she is more on the outside, what she can see..anyway, this is outta topic a bit..well, my point of writing in the middle of the night is, i realize we talk most of the things behind each other's back..perhaps we tend to think a lot since i know, all of u are smart girls, we are the 'BOOBIES SET' anyway..

i told u i want to stop thinking, i want to stop being a smart ass in this issue because it gives me no good..hence, here i am asking u to stop thinking..i know i make mistakes, we all do..sometimes, we do it for the sake of love towards one another..at some point, it is because our heart wants so..i know my intention here is veiled, i hardly able to explain myself in writing, i am aware of that..but i know u girls won't lost in this translation..

i have an idea..! why don't we simply let things out..?fine, i know i'm not that type of person but i'll try..can we, girls..?i am sick of trying to figure out stuff that maybe beyond my comprehension..what i'm saying is, maybe we can talk, at least, if we have something like errr offended, tachin or whatsoever..

nisa, i feel different now..why..?rujin, i don't know what to say la..*sigh..i'm disappointed i guess, yet i know maybe i've crossed the limit or yours where 'joke' due..winnie, i know i said u remind me of puteri alot, u're the resemblance of her in some ways..still, never did i forget who u are, u are winnie nelson ubie whom another friend of mine and u're NOT puteri..iza, haha i offended by what u did only once and that was during asasi, nothing more bebeh..tirah, believe me, i'm glad we had lil talks in uitm..at least among all, i know u're not that innocent so i'm more prepared honey, agagaga..awat ghap, i feel much much better now..! after i notify u about...., u know, i feel like something in my heart is....i dunno, i feel happier.. =)

i do admit, certain things should be left unsaid, however if those certain things can be shared, let it be then..and if those certain things can make whatever between us wayyyy better, in my view, share it friends..after all, we have 4 years yaww..yeah u heard me right, FOUR YEARS..!!oh now, it becomes, THREE YEARS AHEAD..

..............

anyhow, i find facebook is a place for me to play around..poke here, rub there, like over there, post here and there, tag people randomly and etc..its fun..!!lalalala..and oh, i have mijot, a cute dude whom posts alot on my wall with his sweet charming way of seducing but i know, we are just friends, and we will be friends only..(p/s; boi, jangan mara ea, tade pape pun)..next we have mie, a guy who stalks me whenever he's free, at first i find that annoying..now he has reduced all those stuff and as time goes on, i can see he's a normal guy (that's a good news kan) plus he only has a crush on....., thats all..i have crush on people all the time, hehe..erz on the other hand is a bit mysterious since he's a politic dude so i barely know what's on his mind, he's a nice friend though..last but not least, a senior, u should know who u are..thank u very much for the teddy, it's the biggest so far (excluding teddy bears from childhood, siblings and besties).. yet, u are a senior whom i respect a lot, i look up to, i believe in and i consider as my pet-close-buddy bro..

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nevertheless, we are back to one question now besties

hey BOOBIES SET, can we do that from now on.?

malcikgei

oh baby

2010-04-04T23:43:00.003+08:00

a friend of mine asks me when he can read stories regarding my love life..

well my friend, sorry to disappoint u..

i dont have any love life now..

so none updates..?errr

yea i know, dull right..

my life is lame, yet i have some cool friends..

mane bole tamak, life shud be fair..

so one thing at a time la..

plus i havent met any hot stuff aka mr. 'be with me'..

haha, mr. crush is beyond my reach..yeahh nisa, i know ok.. O_O

mr. crunchy isnt mine and maybe wont be..

m is now a good friend of mine..

'cahaya' is only a light during darkness..hey ,muka dia lah penyeri..!

in addition, as many of u know..

my heart is in pieces, still..

besties, can i have a boyfriend.?

carikkan yang berkualiti ea, lol

malcikgei

a line, a stop, a limit, a try

2010-04-01T20:04:00.005+08:00

i will stop..no..!

i am putting a stop..no..!

i have stopped..yes..!

u know, when u're trying SO HARD, REAL HARD to somehow understand your friends, yet in the end they just don't understand u..??

im tired, really..aku letih, mentally tortured..

i have my attitudes which could make u hate me..

no, i am not in denial..yup, i am irritating, annoying, lumpy, disgusting, tiresome creature of God..

u also have to bear in mind, u have your attitudes as well..

i make excuses so i'll feel better inside, i blame myself for not knowing u better, i hurt my own feelings by taking care of yours and i protect u till u can barely breathe..

that's it, no more..im going no further than this..

whatever, to hell with these shitty issues that just do me no favor..

letih aku na paham kau, kau yes dan kau, kau kau sume..

i believe i might have gone to far, fine gotcha..!

im standing on a 'line'..one step forward means u're on your own..one step backward means when u look at your side, u'll find me next to u unmoved..

to some, i have stepped forward, forgive me..to some, i am still on that 'line'..

real sorry if i have done any wrong to you guys, thanks for everything..

no im not putting a stop to our friendships but to my limit of 'trying'..

i can never be perfect for u;

indeed, i am not perfect

malcikgei

MALAM PERDANA SEMBILAN 2

2010-03-29T20:54:00.005+08:00

Woke up around noon..haihh kalau mak abah ade, msti bebel

Had this thought, "cne na g buat rambot ea"

Time ni mesti arina, nuni da balik ruma n meme keluar dah..

Alamak..!!

Pikir punya pikir, I had an idea

Nak naik motor roommate aku la..

tapi rambot cne, set mahal2 naik moto plak, lol

Its ok, aku nekad..!

Tade cara lain dah ni, motor pon on la..!

Took my bath, in 15mins I’ll be going to saloon with mira by motor neh

Then I heard lady gaga was screaming thru the speaker of my phone

Oh, abg syafiq, hurmmm..

Bla bla bla…yes..!!finally a savior..!!

Off to saloon in ss 2, round round, found one.!

Im satisfied, harga murah, buat pon cantik..pro stylist plak, suke suke..!yg penting murah je caj..

Had some chit chat and drinks in McD, off to college then

Put on the dress, get hajek for make up

Ok done, siap..!eh eh the others mcm siput la.. =(

My friends got ready quite late, we left college at 8..the event supposedly start at 8..lol

Arrived in one world hotel parking lot, thought using stairs would be the fastest way

Confident jek bkak pintu naik tangga…then jeng jeng jeng

Haha, we were trapped for 5mins, have to wait for someone to open the door frm outside

Pintu tak bole bkak frm inside, cheh

Thank god gerak 2 keta, 1 lagi grup dtg bkak pintu, muka rasz stepek jek "asal la bole tekunci kat dlm"

Found the lift (agak jaoh, wtf)..kasot mira almost stuck kat pintu, heels tajam..!lol

Masok dewan muka diva, wooopss tepat jek masa org tengah baca doa..

Aku da tesipu-sipu, pkai dress nyeksi tak hengat tetbe stop jap berdiri static buat tatapan umum

Daulat haji mokhtar neh..! huwaaaaaaa

Anyhow, sat down..saw Winnie princess.. =))

Farah texted, "ok Nampak dah kau katne..!"

Faisal cakap "eh Nampak lain hari ni, cantik.."

Kembang idong aku bersama bulunya..

The food was awesome, I never really try Chinese food sebab tak confident plus there’s no one who could tell me whether ini itu bole makan tak..

After makan perut muncit dah, snap pictures..!!yahoooooooo

Done taking pictures in hall, ok outside the hall plak..!

Urmm pictures again.lagi dan lagi gambar..

Woooppss, this hottie mr. crush came..

Talked to my friends (his friends as well)..

Nuni sengaja je "ok aleya, turn kau, cepat la sume kne ambk gmbar dgn dia, sorg sekali"

Ok, memang wajib la aku tak cakap pape, just pose..

Kembang nya dalam hati lahai, ok lya jgn tepuk sebelah tangan bole..!!

Then gambar kali ke 459 lagi, pictures and photos..

Cha alif bot= cabut..!! left the building

Off for more pictures and lepak la jap, sumpah dahaga..!!

rina, non, meme, rasz, nad, mira were great and look great, aku tawu korg malas layan mood manja aku kan for the whole night..still, korg sabar jek..hee, terbaik..!!

Got back in college, asked nisa to sleep with me, she said "tak puas lepak dgn ko"..awwww

Ok, mali tido dgn aku eh sa..!!

Oh dinner tu i didn’t see ujin n nelly..wtip look great and others too, as always.. =))

~ok this is one of the most incredible nights in my life here~

angah, u must be proud of me..

adik save manyakkk duet wohh..!

malcikgei

MALAM PERDANA SEMBILAN 1

2010-03-26T10:54:00.007+08:00

For the 1^st annual dinner of my college, I decided to be simple yet nice

I bought a singlet for 20 bucks and that’s it =)

around 6pm, I took my bath and put on those things

I’m satisfied, really..

Because I didn’t spend a lot, yeahh.. angah, u must be proud of me kan..

I mixed up whatever I have, thank god I do have my own cool stuff and credit to awa gha jugak

I put on my black jeans, black inner, orange singlet, 4 inch white wedges, black shawl, gold earrings and watch

Overall, the food was ok, performances was yarr ok, ceremony was also ok..

The flow of the event was quite smooth

I got two awards which I had no idea about it..

I heard nothing, not even rumors till faisal congratulated me a few hours before the dinner

Still, I wasn’t sure as in I thought he might be joking

To my surprise, my name was called but I felt like strangling the girl who mentioned my name with “bin”

Eh eh, since when I’m a dude neh..?walauweyh, asset sy tanak hebat plak awk ckp “bin” ye

Anyhow, I got awards for the ‘tunas cemerlang’ and ‘wakil tingkat’

What made me happy most was; kawan-kawan sy ade..!

Win ub, hani bah, aw par, faz meri, tira dy,ujin, fie soda, siew inn

After the ceremony ended, arina and others approached me

;- Arina, non, mira, meme, nad, su, rasz

“babe, jom kuar.!pavi ambk gmbr then andalus kot”

“err..sure..” I was extremely tired but I couldn’t resist the temptation plus it had been a long time since I last hung out with them

Took my bath, got changed and went out

oh yes honey, I saw u win ub.. =(

Anyhow, we took various great divacious pictures

Went off to andalus then, got lost..

I was driving arina’s car and followed su from behind

Still, when there’s a will there’s a way man..!

Hence, we found the famous andalus,haha..

All of us were hungry plus sleepy

Had some chat, drinks, shisha

Off to college, nad accompanied me to melur

Went straight to my bed and fall asleep

~I just had one of the best nights in um~

MPS 1:

after MPS 1:-

Guess im lucky to have the wonderful people around me
malcikgei

kau punya pasal aku macam ni..!

2010-03-22T05:44:00.004+08:00

ok, now its 6am in the morning, monday yo..

i have a class that starts at 11am..

i need to wash my clothes by hands at 9am..

and i have tonnes of things to do..

the last class on monday ends at 6pm..

how can i stay awake without enough sleep.. *sighh

this is all because of this movie, yeah i blame u..!

"my sister's keeper" didnt allow me to shut my eyes at 4am..

oh, i cried at the end of this film,

fine fine, i lied..

actually, i started crying in the middle of the story..

shoot..!!

cam diaz and those in the film, u guys are darn good..!!

tingtong..
wake up in the morning feelin li8 p.diddy (i will at 9am)
err now, sleep 1st..!!
malcikgei